That's right. I'm a MAN!. I'll
do what I want because I'm a man.
Can you feel me?
It's always someone else' fault if things go wrong in my life, even my drug
addiction-though I'm PROUD to be an addict. I shake and shiver thinking about
the needle. I almost cream my pants when I think about that Heroin coursing
through my veins.
My buddy? Hmph- he's a pussy. He'd only snort the stuff but me? Man I love mainlining!
Can you feel me?
'That's not a good thing.' you say? Hey-not my fault. Both my parents were addicts
and they did fine. Well until they got AIDs and died. I was 13 or 14, I guess
they should have been more careful about it huh? I figure I'm a man
and know what I'm doing and as soon as I'm off probation I can mainline again.
Can you feel me?
It's not my fault I'm on probation. Drug charges. Let me tell you what it is
and the way it be. I got my boy, he's three and I'm hangin' out with a buddy.
My buddy leaves a needle on the floor nearby while I'm asleep so the cops arrest
me and put my ass in jail. Can you believe that shit? Hangin' with my buddy
at the crackhouse don't mean nothin'.
Can you feel me?
I get probation-I can't do drugs so I drink myself as drunk as possible every
night. I'm a man! No one can tell me what to do and it pisses me off
to be reduced to fuckin' alcohol.
Can you feel me?
Got me a girlfreind. She covers the bills and expenses and keeps me in beer.
I can drive her car when I want to and let my freinds drive it and bring my
drug buddies to her house. My best freind has AIDs because he wasn't careful
but me? I'm a man!
Can you feel me?
Pisses me off when she expectss me to do something-clean the house or find a
job. I work at one place or another for a few weeks then get fired. Not my fault
they don't want to work with me and my drinking all night but I'm a man and
will do what I want. Fuck 'em.
Can you feel me?
She was up in my shit one night and I was just trying to keep a good buzz so
I took her car and left. That will teach her that I'm a man. She and her momma
go looking for me and the car a day later. Hey-I'm a man and don't HAVE to check
in with nobody! Anyway-they see a freind of mine driving her car-I loaned it
to him. I'm a man and can do what I want to do. My girlfreind scared my buddy
by trying to open the door and pull him out at a stop sign. Glad he's ok because
he stepped on the gas and got away. She almost got knocked down but didn't so
I don't see what her problem was about it.
can you feel me?
I wrecked that car later. It's not my fault-the streets were wet and I was only
doing 25. Who'd think a light pole could total a car? But it's cool-she got
another one for me to drive and since we only live a few blocks from her job
she don't need it like I do. Because I'm a man!
Can you feel me?
My girlfreinds mom is nuts and hates me. It's not my fault I tripped over the
paint cans in the hallway one night when I was drunk-shouldn't have had them
fuckers there anyway. Not my fault I flooded the kitchen by leaving the water
on all night either. There was a plastic baf in the sink that clogged it up-bet
they won't do that again. That's ok because it's her fault not mine. I'm a
man and can do what I want.
Can you feel me?
Her mom has a boyfriend. Short. mean-looking little fucker. He's ok but
he don't get me. I tell him about my parents and how it's everyone else' fault
and he says things like
'So what are you doing with yourself now? All that shit is the past
and it's up to you to make your own life.'
Little bastard. I'm a
man and AM making my own life. I don't have to do shit but sit around
eat the food and drink.
Can you feel me?
The little bastard pulled a gun on me one night-he's a crazy fucker. Me
and the mom were arguing and fighting. He told me to go up to bed several
times but I'm a man and can do what I want so the bastard pulled his
.45 on me. He's from Texas and you know they are all gun crazy down there.
Can you feel me?
Oh man...let me tell you about my son. Great kid. Lives with his
momma and she is messing him up so I try to fix it when I get him. I let
my girlfriend drive four hours to get him. She leaves me money so I can
get beer and buy him snacks. I never yell or make him eat anything except
he wants to eat. I allow everyone else in the house to baby-sit him so
I can get wasted and know he's safe. I let my girlfriend and her mom buy
him food and feed him and get his diapers. He's three and one day I hope
he and I can get wasted together.
Can you feel me?
They got all mad one night because I took the car and went to a friends. So
what if it was three in the morning and I left the door wide open to the house
with him sleeping on the sofa? None of the crackheads came in right? My girlfriend
was a little late to work the next day but so what? I'm a man and can do what
I want.
Can you feel me?
My boy was sittin' out blowing bubbles with dish soap-that Texan said he was
licking the wand and looking stoned and that my son gets these little shakes
sometimes but he'll be ok-I'll try to teach him how to be careful with shit
so he don't get HIV but if he does it's not my fault because I'm a man
and showed him the right way to get fucked up.
Because I'm a man-can you feel me?
Can you feel me?